Pregnancy and preparing for birth amidst a worldwide hypnosis was a trying journey. Lonely at times, accompanied by a heart filled with rage and a longing to keep the sisterhood alive, I stayed true to my instincts and spent much time in nature and tending to my family. Conceiving this child with the intention of he being my last, his spirit came to me while on spiritual retreat. Walking up the big hill, surrounded by Oak trees I felt the strength of the ancients with me, wanting to come through me, though I didn’t know why.  I had just completed the composition of my life vows with Sister MorningStar and was also steadily working on my Sutra chanting work. Deep on my spiritual journey and commitment to using my Voice to speak my truth with integrity and clarity, I wondered if I possessed the courage.

Almost 9 1/2 moons pregnant and deep into the heat of August, I felt huge, exhausted and not at all prepared for birth. Looking after the farm and children, with my husband away long hours at work, I longed for one full day of rest…and to not, Goddess willing, go into labour at night. Please, let me sleep first!

One evening after a long day, I laid my head on my pillow heaving an extended sigh of relief. Not two minutes later, my waters released! Oh no! I was terribly cranky. I didn’t want to labour at night. I didn’t think I had the strength to do so. I called upon my two sisters, and told them to come.

It was not an easy process. Up and down the stairs, in and out of the bath, on the floor and standing up, I moved every which way praying for baby to come through. There I was, impatient and wondering why I had chosen to do ‘this’ again, half submerged in a lukewarm bath staring at a flickering candle flame.

A voice came to me and whispered, “You are the bringer of the dawn. You ARE the bringer of the dawn. YOU are the bringer of the dawn. You are the BRINGER OF THE DAWN”  It was like a mantra, over and over and over again. I got an overwhelming urge to shout at my sisters in the other room, “Ladies!! WE are the Bringers of the Dawn! WE are bringing forth the future! We are birthing a new generation, just what the world needs right now!”

I didn’t say it.

A few hours later, as the sun’s rays were peeking out over the treetops, I gave birth to my fifth child and second son, Oak. I was the Bringer of the Dawn!  Mother to this unique child. Moments afterward I recounted to my sisters the vision I had received and they exclaimed, “Oh! We WISH you would have told us in the moment! We would have loved to hear it!”

I had been given a chance by the Great Mother herself to use my voice, to allow her to work through me, to speak what needed to be heard by the Sisterhood. I didn’t realize it at the time, but I had to give birth in the darkness to bring forth the light. I saw how important it was and IS, not only for me, but for everyone. I must speak my truth and the truth that comes through me, with the steadiness of the great Oak tree and the grace of a High Priestess.